it was Spirit Week!

which made the week go by so fast.

this weekend i didn't do much of anything saturday night i told britney i would watch Mikayla for her over night and on my way over there i witnessed the most horrific scene i believe i have EVER seen in my entire life. As i was getting on to southside there was like 10 police cars blocking traffic and they were directing you to the service road then when i got up on the accident there was a convertible pt cruiser with a Huge truck flipped on its side laying across the car and all you saw was a white sheet covering up the body and 3 ppl died. i just started crying and i called my mom. it was so crazy. for the past two days i keep replaying the picture in my mind. it just will not go away. i thought i thought crazy thoughts about dieing before such as i have written in my previous entires. but now  MhhmM.. yall just don't even know.

Sunday became a wonderful day though. hillary called and had this crazy idea of getting piercings. so... as soon as she got off work we went to jasons deli to talk to Megan about the guy that did her tounge then we went up to fat kats and she got her "web" pierced which is the thing that connects your tounge to your mouth and i got my "trangus ?" pierced. heres a pic.

it hurt(s) so bad.

at belindas during lunch friday.

lookin Rough.

dressed up for "kiddy day"

Mikayla

The End.

goodnite.

    ♥ Britney's little angel ♥

bad pic of me but she makes the pic anyway.

Okay. so today was BLUE day which was quiet interesting.

And tomorrow is Twin day a.k.a HOOTER GIRLS!

OKAY! this is sad. im sitting here listening to "i believe"- Fantasia. yea last years grad song and im already crying. guh... this is ridiculous. it's only the second week of school. but i already know it's just going to fly by. and that makes me very sad. although we all say im ready to be out of school. i know we are really going to miss it. and that sux.
I guess that's why im trying to be involved with everything this year so i guess i can look back and miss it even more.lol. bcos if last year was my senior year i prolly would of cryed bcos it sucked so bad.
but anyways. i love ALL my girls like kerazy. and im really looking forward to being up your asses all year... lol XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX!!!
♥ 

aa ap nj sw bw bs hs mc jb jt lm 06' SENIORS

So far so good.
i love all my classes and everyone in them.
2 days down... 178 more to go.
DCT is alright. Hills in there with me so its all good.
i just miss hangin with everyone after school.
Nicole says GET OUT but i REFUSE. lol
as much bitchin my dad and i did to get me in there. NO

Wow  this is the very last day of summer we will EVER have. kinda hard to believe these past three high school years have flown by. this year is gonna be the best ever and i can't wait. so i will see all my lovely ladies lookin there best tomorrow.

p.s.

ok so some bad news... so far i plan to sell my car.

but the GREAT news is i get a new one and a better one. YAY!

i can already see this year starting off right.

my beautiful baby girl.  :)

Today.... i had to work a double.. blah. but i also go to see sum ppl i havent seen in like a million years such as Ashley Brad and Josh. not too much has been goin on besides working. i finally got my schedule for school but its so fucked up it does not even count. they tried putting me in tv pro for 4th blk when im spose to be in there 1st. and they didnt put my dct class on there.but owell orientation is thursday so it will be fixed.

So... ending on that note. ive talked to hillary and ashley and we want to finally get EVERYONE (girls) together sometime next week. meg and i are both off friday. and im off thurs and she works that nite. so that being orientation day i was thinking maybe we could all go to the beach or something afterwards. or for those who work everyday all Day such and ama and baky maybe go to dinner one nite. i dunno just a thought that has not completely went thru YET but will obviously happen seeing as how summer is 2 wks short of being gone and we have yet all got together... sadness... so just some ideas. everyone comment and let me know what your schedule is next week....!!!!

xoxo

Hmm...this weekend has been so Great!
Friday- had girls nite at hills. glad i got to finally spend quality time with the ones that were there. missed my girls who weren't :( !
Saturday- got up early went home and got ready to go with meredith to go get our hair done. then meg met us up there. after there went and got our makeup done. and i must say i was very pleased. it was a bit dramatic but it was nice. left there and went home to get ready for the Big EXCITING Nite.  Cj came and picked me up and we took pics then had to hurry and meet up at lighthouse grille. after we left we went to cjs to take pics then off to prom... Everyone looked so Gorgeous. sad to hear almost every couple got into an arguement. thats not s'pose to happen on prom night. but i see everyone was fine by the end of the evening and back to all smiles again. after prom we stopped at a few places then came back to my house and passed Out. It was a fun nite but i must include i still agree that homecoming was 10 x better!!!

Hope everyone had a good time and stayed safe...

I'm beyond tired so I think im gonna go hit the sack.

Happy Early Birthday to the Beatiful Belinda Kay Shuckis !!!

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Yesterday consisted of... leaving after lunch with meg and matt then we met up with lexie and chrsity and we went back to matts then around 2:30 i went to cjs. then around 5 i came home and got ready for miss englewood. it was fun despite the fact cj was mad bcos when we first sat down he asked could we move and i said in a min when the ppl i planned on sitting by came. then he finally got fed up with waiting so he asked if i would move so we did. i was happy, i felt pretty uncomfortable sitting with the ppl around me. sad when it use to be your close friends and now since u barely even talk its more like ppl u barely know. so after that we went out to eat then back to my house.

-Last week i got my prom dress, when we got to French Novelty they really didn't have too many left that i liked in my size. then i found this one they had just gotten in so i got it. it does't fit exactly how i would like but it will do... its a coral color which i really liked.

-spring break is only one week away now... i can't wait. not sure whats gonna happen but it will be fun :)

well i gotta get ready for work...11-4

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Today didn't do too much. Christy came over at 8 this morning and i called the school and they said they didnt know what time fcat was gonna be over so we decided not to go. So then we went and picked up britney b. from school then went to the mall. we were gonna go look at prom dresses across town but it was too far and i am most def not getting my dress from the mall. after that i came home around 3. i really need to go to school tomorrow but im not bcos my mom wants to go shopping then wed i prolly wont go bcos it pointless and i didnt go friday... god that sounds horrible.  anyways...

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I was just browsing through my previous entries and I believe now I'm going to delete them and possibly start a new journal if necesary. Although I won't deny it I absolutely hate my past and what I did.  How stupid was I to think how I thought.  I try to forget about a lot of things but the shit just doesn't go away.  I honestly don't think I could've ever made such a Big mistake.  (and for the ones that read this and "think" they know what I'm talking of, please let's not jump to asumptions bcos you probably have no idea, no one really does besides a few).  I know people talk about how they have regrets and what not, but I just never pictured me as that girl.  I'm not suppose to have regrets I'm suppose to make choices and decisions that I can live with tomorrow.  But I guess in this situation my only choice is to be strong and look at it and part of growing up and one huge mistake.  God, the more I think about it the more it eats me up inside to know I fucked up so bad.  But hey whatever, it's my fault, I made it now I have to live with it.We each have our own goal in life and what standard we feel we must live up to.  I think I'm ready not to forget about my past but throw it away and just look at it as lessons learned.  There's too many things I strive for in life and do my best to get, to let something like this fuck up everything. I'm not gonna let it bother me anymore and bring me down to look like such a bad person.  Although no one else looks at me as how I portray myself it still bothers me. Many say I'm too hard on myself and worry too much about what other people think of me and that I need to stop worrying so much, to the point where it literally makes me sick. But aren't we our own worst enemies?!? I don't know just a thought.

I believe it's that time where you have to look around and see who your true friends are and who means what to you. which is exactly what I've been doing and it's pretty plain and clear to me who I can count on and who I absolutely can't bcos there to fukin worried about themselves and they strive to fit in and feel loved and liked by someone who doesn't even look at them in that way. how dumb. o-well i prolly don't even know the whole story maybe just enough to say shit about it.  But like I said I see now who my True friends are. Not that it honestly matters at this point. well enuf said for now. im tired...

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Hmm... whle i was looking for facts on cancun for a project i came across this... just something to think about for our senior year. look at it and tell me what u think. And the "legal" age to drink is 18.

http://www.studentadvtrav.com/GradTrips/faq.html

*New Years Eve*

*Meredith and I a few weekends ago at the hotel*

Hmm....

    So far this week has been blah. Wet, Rainy, & Cold. but its been pretty good i guess. i find it absolutely effin amazing how much people really care about others lifes... so much they have to sit around and talk about them all damn day. and i find it absolutely ridiculous. i wish sum would get a life of their own and i think ive finally grasped the concept of why i really don't care about others bullshit. its pretty sad when ur at school and go in the b/room to talk on the fone and u cant even do that without someone in their running and telling someone about MY conversation. i really wish ppl would just stay out of MY business especially when it has absolutely nothing to do with them. so yea Michael and I broke up and No were not getting back together i dont care what other ppl want it just didnt work. The End.

And No Cj and I are not together. We are just friends.Im not that stupid. im not just gonna jump right back into a relationship with him. Of course I Love him to death that'll never change but were not gonna be together right now bcos i dont think its the right time. we both have alot we have to do. and that's just my choice. i could care less what others have to say about that as well. im so sick of people trying to give me advice when they don't even know what the hell is going on. all they know is what they hear. and you can count on that to be true 20 % of the time. for those of you i do talk to and you know the real deal i know your right and that's part of Why im not with him.</font>

Yesterday... i went to lunch at mc donalds with tammy and nicole. o what great talks... some ppl are tellin me that shes 2 faced and does nothing but talk shit behind my back but w/e i mean that's her choice if thats what she wants to do. of course it bothers me but in reality look how effed up the ppl at ewood are. does anyone really believe they have a true friend who never talks about them? hmm... can't name many...i guess thats prolly the reason that i chose to be best friends with someone who has their shit together and i can actually trust. although i love all my friends and would do anything for em  i know they talk shit about me at  times and i could careless bcos its what ppl seem to do best.

well i guess thats all for now... wsshh... feel much better now that i got some of that off my chest. i hope no one takes this to heart and think its directed specifically to them bcos its not. its just in general. and the other things i didnt point out they know who they are i don't have to mention names. i just wish youd grow up and keep my name Out of your mouth.

<3 xoxo