We've got something they can't touch

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 02:53:05 GMT

This past week at school was fun.

it was Spirit Week!

which made the week go by so fast.

this weekend i didn't do much of anything saturday night i told britney i would watch Mikayla for her over night and on my way over there i witnessed the most horrific scene i believe i have EVER seen in my entire life. As i was getting on to southside there was like 10 police cars blocking traffic and they were directing you to the service road then when i got up on the accident there was a convertible pt cruiser with a Huge truck flipped on its side laying across the car and all you saw was a white sheet covering up the body and 3 ppl died. i just started crying and i called my mom. it was so crazy. for the past two days i keep replaying the picture in my mind. it just will not go away. i thought i thought crazy thoughts about dieing before such as i have written in my previous entires. but now MhhmM.. yall just don't even know.

Sunday became a wonderful day though. hillary called and had this crazy idea of getting piercings. so... as soon as she got off work we went to jasons deli to talk to Megan about the guy that did her tounge then we went up to fat kats and she got her "web" pierced which is the thing that connects your tounge to your mouth and i got my "trangus ?" pierced. heres a pic.

it hurt(s) so bad.

at belindas during lunch friday.

lookin Rough.

dressed up for "kiddy day"

Mikayla

The End.

goodnite.

♥

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 02:36:39 GMT

♥ Britney's little angel ♥

bad pic of me but she makes the pic anyway.

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 02:26:09 GMT

Okay. so today was BLUE day which was quiet interesting.

And tomorrow is Twin day a.k.a HOOTER GIRLS!

♥

Frustrated!

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 01:39:39 GMT

Ok... so ive been sick. and it sux. i finally decided that i should go to the doctor's tomorrow which worry's me because i never agree to go or take medication.i hate them both. But since my nose has been bleeding for the past month and now i have a sinus infection (i think) and all that runs is blood i think its that time.
On a different note im selling my car. I went to a car dealership today and test drove an Altima and now im in ♥ . im not exactly sure if that's what i want but im really looking at it and the 04 Galants and the new Rav4 and the Impalas and the Camrys and well anyways im looking. im really going to miss my car but we've had this love-hate type of relationship going on a month now and im sick of it.I think we are also both hypochondria. so saturday im going to go put it in autotrader. hopefully i get what im asking for it. and my dad- im done with, he really pisses me off. everytime he calls me now he does nothing but bitch to me about it because he doesn't understand if i've only had 3 months and it only has 21,000 miles on it why would i sell it. so... o well. its my car and it's in my mom's name so i do what i (we) want.

SENIOR boys and girls... (-Nicole-) about the shirts and stuff i was thinking if you wanted to pay only $10 mullas we could ride out to the ghetto in gateway and get them down there. WAY cheaper and they look really nice. and as far as the kid day thing im down.

well im off to bed. today is the second day i didn't wake up till 6:45 which is part of why i didn't attend school today. so i gotta go take care of that!

iluall!

♥

a quickie

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 20:09:06 GMT

OKAY! this is sad. im sitting here listening to "i believe"- Fantasia. yea last years grad song and im already crying. guh... this is ridiculous. it's only the second week of school. but i already know it's just going to fly by. and that makes me very sad. although we all say im ready to be out of school. i know we are really going to miss it. and that sux.
I guess that's why im trying to be involved with everything this year so i guess i can look back and miss it even more.lol. bcos if last year was my senior year i prolly would of cryed bcos it sucked so bad.
but anyways. i love ALL my girls like kerazy. and im really looking forward to being up your asses all year... lol XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX!!!
♥

aa ap nj sw bw bs hs mc jb jt lm 06' SENIORS

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 02:38:20 GMT

So far so good.
i love all my classes and everyone in them.
2 days down... 178 more to go.
DCT is alright. Hills in there with me so its all good.
i just miss hangin with everyone after school.
Nicole says GET OUT but i REFUSE. lol
as much bitchin my dad and i did to get me in there. NO

EDIT: YAY! i get to keep my car. i s'pose thats a good thing. come to find out it was just a little leak and absolutely nothing with my engine. so everythings perfect now. well thats all for now. goodnite.

OKAY so it's the last day.

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 19:33:37 GMT

Wow this is the very last day of summer we will EVER have. kinda hard to believe these past three high school years have flown by. this year is gonna be the best ever and i can't wait. so i will see all my lovely ladies lookin there best tomorrow.

p.s.

ok so some bad news... so far i plan to sell my car.

but the GREAT news is i get a new one and a better one. YAY!

i can already see this year starting off right.

browsing thru random pics

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 00:09:35 GMT

my beautiful baby girl. :)

Today.... i had to work a double.. blah. but i also go to see sum ppl i havent seen in like a million years such as Ashley Brad and Josh. not too much has been goin on besides working. i finally got my schedule for school but its so fucked up it does not even count. they tried putting me in tv pro for 4th blk when im spose to be in there 1st. and they didnt put my dct class on there.but owell orientation is thursday so it will be fixed.

So... ending on that note. ive talked to hillary and ashley and we want to finally get EVERYONE (girls) together sometime next week. meg and i are both off friday. and im off thurs and she works that nite. so that being orientation day i was thinking maybe we could all go to the beach or something afterwards. or for those who work everyday all Day such and ama and baky maybe go to dinner one nite. i dunno just a thought that has not completely went thru YET but will obviously happen seeing as how summer is 2 wks short of being gone and we have yet all got together... sadness... so just some ideas. everyone comment and let me know what your schedule is next week....!!!!

xoxo

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 14:37:55 GMT

Ok so I see Girls Nite has been postponed. I'm happy bcos a lot of people were not going to be able to make it. i can't wait till the nite rolls around bcos i will def be there. i miss ALL my girls like keraziness...

This weekend Cj and I are going down to his dads house. i absolutely can't wait :). i love it down there. its so peaceful and i love the river. i also like it bcos i feel him and i are secluded and have no phone reception so no matter what no one can bother us. lol. so thats what im doin for 4th of july.

Meg got a job with me YAY! she started today i hope all went well. i love you and im happy i got to see u n lexie and frannie yesterday. i missed u.

all my LADIES... i feel a "beachin it day" comin up next week after all the RAIN is gone...

lets make it happen :)

Xo

MY Life!

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 11:58:04 GMT

OKAY... so i haven't updated in a really long time.
well i finally start my new job TODAY! Jason's Deli.
i haven't worked one day since i got my car which has been 2 weeks.
so its gonna really weird. but i think im gonna really like this job.
so well see ;).
Wednesday CJ surprised me with the dog ive been asking him to get for months now.
I kinda spoiled it bcos he wasn't home yet but he said come over when he got back but instead i just went over there. but either way i was very surprised. her name is
Abigail. Abby for short. Shes a cock-a-poo,shes black and she is 11wks old.i feel bad bcos she was a lotta $ but owell he'll make it back rite..
Yesterday I got lost SO MANY MANY times between going to cjs work and taking her to the vet. it was horrible. i cried.
so anyways...
i miss ALL MY FRIENDS. i see that statement on EVERYBODYS journal soo...
how bout we make some effin plans.... maybe all get together next week and
possibly go to DINNER or something...

<33

I had the time of my life and I owe it all to You ;)

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 02:00:39 GMT

Hmm...this weekend has been so Great!
Friday- had girls nite at hills. glad i got to finally spend quality time with the ones that were there. missed my girls who weren't :( !
Saturday- got up early went home and got ready to go with meredith to go get our hair done. then meg met us up there. after there went and got our makeup done. and i must say i was very pleased. it was a bit dramatic but it was nice. left there and went home to get ready for the Big EXCITING Nite. Cj came and picked me up and we took pics then had to hurry and meet up at lighthouse grille. after we left we went to cjs to take pics then off to prom... Everyone looked so Gorgeous. sad to hear almost every couple got into an arguement. thats not s'pose to happen on prom night. but i see everyone was fine by the end of the evening and back to all smiles again. after prom we stopped at a few places then came back to my house and passed Out. It was a fun nite but i must include i still agree that homecoming was 10 x better!!!

Hope everyone had a good time and stayed safe...

I'm beyond tired so I think im gonna go hit the sack.

Happy Early Birthday to the Beatiful Belinda Kay Shuckis !!!

<333

MY BIRTHDAY!!!

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 22:06:33 GMT

HEY HAY HEY yea its my birthday!!! how fun =). it only happens once a year so make the best out of it While you can rite!!!
my day went pretty good i s'pose it consisted of...
getting presents and balloons from meredith
going to class and mr thomas giving me my fav candy
wonderful ppl i dont know telling me happy bday
walking around with brad and ang looking for something to film
hanging out the whole fourth block with the beautimous <3 Hillary and having a <3 2 <3
after school going to the beach with meg christy and frannie and seeing everyone
getting WaY tanner
going to go out to this new restaraunt in the new mall called Machgionas (sp) with cj
and...then who knows what will happen...

last night we did my bday at my house with my mom and i got money $ my hair did and my fav ring. then cj decided to go ahead and give me my present so i could wear it on my my birthday. and its soo pretty. i love it. and the best part is its actually a real diamond...hmm.hh.

so..
ive had a lot on my mind the last week about all my "friends"/ acquantances (sp)
and ive came up with this
a lot has happen this school year
i mean A Lot
and the funniest part is none of us have changed
things have changed us
were growing up and some of us have fallin into serious relationships
while others are still single or have a boyfriend in their little group
so i think thats where a lot of the problem is and its not even a problem its just the way it happens
and its reasonable because if it happens that way ur guaranteed to always be around your friends as well as his so theres no arguement.
im tired of getting worked up over something so stupid.
im tired of being around what i use to call friends and now being uncomfortable around them
i noticed how weird it felt today at school around a few i came in contact with
then at the beach
i feel like i can't even talk to them then i look like a stuch up bitch bcos there prolly like wtf has blown up her head to where she can't even talk to us...
well i hate it and it sux
so im over it. if we dont talk we just don't talk
nothing obviously in my power that can be done.
i take half the blame bcos.. its only fair.
but to everyone who thinks this might pertain to u... it prolly does so know this
i love u all
i always will
we were friends maybe best friends at one point and thats all that matters time to move on.

<333

i belive in fate and everything happens for a reason.

Happy Birthday to ME!

A Short One...

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 15:26:20 GMT

Yesterday consisted of... leaving after lunch with meg and matt then we met up with lexie and chrsity and we went back to matts then around 2:30 i went to cjs. then around 5 i came home and got ready for miss englewood. it was fun despite the fact cj was mad bcos when we first sat down he asked could we move and i said in a min when the ppl i planned on sitting by came. then he finally got fed up with waiting so he asked if i would move so we did. i was happy, i felt pretty uncomfortable sitting with the ppl around me. sad when it use to be your close friends and now since u barely even talk its more like ppl u barely know. so after that we went out to eat then back to my house.

-Last week i got my prom dress, when we got to French Novelty they really didn't have too many left that i liked in my size. then i found this one they had just gotten in so i got it. it does't fit exactly how i would like but it will do... its a coral color which i really liked.

-spring break is only one week away now... i can't wait. not sure whats gonna happen but it will be fun :)

well i gotta get ready for work...11-4

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 22:34:03 GMT

Today didn't do too much. Christy came over at 8 this morning and i called the school and they said they didnt know what time fcat was gonna be over so we decided not to go. So then we went and picked up britney b. from school then went to the mall. we were gonna go look at prom dresses across town but it was too far and i am most def not getting my dress from the mall. after that i came home around 3. i really need to go to school tomorrow but im not bcos my mom wants to go shopping then wed i prolly wont go bcos it pointless and i didnt go friday... god that sounds horrible. anyways...

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I was just browsing through my previous entries and I believe now I'm going to delete them and possibly start a new journal if necesary. Although I won't deny it I absolutely hate my past and what I did. How stupid was I to think how I thought. I try to forget about a lot of things but the shit just doesn't go away. I honestly don't think I could've ever made such a Big mistake. (and for the ones that read this and "think" they know what I'm talking of, please let's not jump to asumptions bcos you probably have no idea, no one really does besides a few). I know people talk about how they have regrets and what not, but I just never pictured me as that girl. I'm not suppose to have regrets I'm suppose to make choices and decisions that I can live with tomorrow. But I guess in this situation my only choice is to be strong and look at it and part of growing up and one huge mistake. God, the more I think about it the more it eats me up inside to know I fucked up so bad. But hey whatever, it's my fault, I made it now I have to live with it.We each have our own goal in life and what standard we feel we must live up to. I think I'm ready not to forget about my past but throw it away and just look at it as lessons learned. There's too many things I strive for in life and do my best to get, to let something like this fuck up everything. I'm not gonna let it bother me anymore and bring me down to look like such a bad person. Although no one else looks at me as how I portray myself it still bothers me. Many say I'm too hard on myself and worry too much about what other people think of me and that I need to stop worrying so much, to the point where it literally makes me sick. But aren't we our own worst enemies?!? I don't know just a thought.

I believe it's that time where you have to look around and see who your true friends are and who means what to you. which is exactly what I've been doing and it's pretty plain and clear to me who I can count on and who I absolutely can't bcos there to fukin worried about themselves and they strive to fit in and feel loved and liked by someone who doesn't even look at them in that way. how dumb. o-well i prolly don't even know the whole story maybe just enough to say shit about it. But like I said I see now who my True friends are. Not that it honestly matters at this point. well enuf said for now. im tired...

What an Ugly Day....

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 17:52:36 GMT

Hmm... whle i was looking for facts on cancun for a project i came across this... just something to think about for our senior year. look at it and tell me what u think. And the "legal" age to drink is 18.

http://www.studentadvtrav.com/GradTrips/faq.html

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 03:19:37 GMT

Dang... this week has gone by so fast. this past weekend i didnt do much besides work and hang out with Cj. He stayed with me fri nite and sun nite. For Super Bowl we went to Sneakers and watched some of the game then left at half time to pick up Chris and go to Ryans to finish watching the game. Patriots won= Booooo

Mon= No school. went out to the beach with cj and ate and shopped. then i had to be at work at 4. it sucked so bad. i ended up staying there till almost 11:00 bcos the ppl that were s'pose to come in didn't get there on time. then i called cj to come get me and ::surprise surprise:: he was sitting at my house talking to my mom. i was nervous but really happy they finally had their "talk" so everythings back on track now. Im soooo.... happy :)!
Tues= No school once again. i woke up late to begin with then i threw up which i knew would happen bcos when im nervous about something or really tired i throw up. but i was gonna go to skool anyways bcos i needed to and cj was already at my house but it just didnt happen. so i went back to bed then got up around noon and felt ten times better.
Wed= the morning started off bad to begin with. i woke up to both phones ringing and it was meredith saying was i ready she was out front. but uh... def wasnt so i went to skool late. i feel im really slackin on skool lately. but im tryin. we got out at 1 thank god.then i spent the day-nite with cj and we watched boogeyman (bootlegged). it was... weird.
Thurs= Today was actually a pretty good day. school went by quick then i had to be at work @ 5. s'pose to get off at 10:30 but i left at 9 bcos i was just really tired of being there and me and jose were messing around on the grill and i picked up this metal plate u sit on top of the chicken and i burnt the hell out of my arm. it hurts so bad. u can actually see the indentions (sp?) from the thing. i can't wait till this summer so i can get a new job anywhere I want. i mean i like my job it just gets too hectic. it tired me out to easily and goes by way to slow. by the time i get home im overly exhausted and always seem to feel sick.

Tomorrow= FridaY which means :weekend: Thank God. not too shure what im doing yet though. Spring Break is also rite around the corner in which im Overly Excited about. i can't wait. its gonna be the Best ever i'll make sure of that.

well i guess im gonna go take a shower and go to bed. im so tired.

<333

: Now and then there comes a time
when everything just falls in line,
we live and learn from our mistakes
our deepest cuts are healed by fate :

*laugh while you can,
learn while you can,
forgive while you can,
and live when you can
because you only get
one chance!*

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 20:29:28 GMT

*New Years Eve*

Experimenting

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 04:13:51 GMT

*Meredith and I a few weekends ago at the hotel*

Who knows what will happen next...;)

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 20:55:43 GMT

Hmm....

So far this week has been blah. Wet, Rainy, & Cold. but its been pretty good i guess. i find it absolutely effin amazing how much people really care about others lifes... so much they have to sit around and talk about them all damn day. and i find it absolutely ridiculous. i wish sum would get a life of their own and i think ive finally grasped the concept of why i really don't care about others bullshit. its pretty sad when ur at school and go in the b/room to talk on the fone and u cant even do that without someone in their running and telling someone about MY conversation. i really wish ppl would just stay out of MY business especially when it has absolutely nothing to do with them. so yea Michael and I broke up and No were not getting back together i dont care what other ppl want it just didnt work. The End.

And No Cj and I are not together. We are just friends.Im not that stupid. im not just gonna jump right back into a relationship with him. Of course I Love him to death that'll never change but were not gonna be together right now bcos i dont think its the right time. we both have alot we have to do. and that's just my choice. i could care less what others have to say about that as well. im so sick of people trying to give me advice when they don't even know what the hell is going on. all they know is what they hear. and you can count on that to be true 20 % of the time. for those of you i do talk to and you know the real deal i know your right and that's part of Why im not with him.</font>

Yesterday... i went to lunch at mc donalds with tammy and nicole. o what great talks... some ppl are tellin me that shes 2 faced and does nothing but talk shit behind my back but w/e i mean that's her choice if thats what she wants to do. of course it bothers me but in reality look how effed up the ppl at ewood are. does anyone really believe they have a true friend who never talks about them? hmm... can't name many...i guess thats prolly the reason that i chose to be best friends with someone who has their shit together and i can actually trust. although i love all my friends and would do anything for em i know they talk shit about me at times and i could careless bcos its what ppl seem to do best.

well i guess thats all for now... wsshh... feel much better now that i got some of that off my chest. i hope no one takes this to heart and think its directed specifically to them bcos its not. its just in general. and the other things i didnt point out they know who they are i don't have to mention names. i just wish youd grow up and keep my name Out of your mouth.

<3 xoxo

in GA

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 16:50:01 GMT

My computer at home is still messed up at home and now im in GA with Mallory so i thought id drop a few lines. im very unexpectedly up here its kerazy how it happened cuz im s'pose to be at my gmas with my mom but i got ahold of her sis before they came so they were like OK u have 5 mins to pack so i came down here and surprised her.

School is actually great this year. im looking forward to these last 2 years bein the best ones. my classes are also ez as well i got taken out of BST and changed to chemistry with mr arnold which is great bcuz if i were to wait till next term i would of had mr barfield... but i dont know why i was in BST anyway seeing as how id never taken typing. englewood is soo unorganized.
i think im at the point where im finally happy in "my" life. nothing is really bothering me at this point besides my father who i will not be seeing for a while now and its fine with me bcuz i dont like going over there anyway. well were about to leave so ill write more later.

I <3 CJ

XOXO

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 13:10:20 GMT

well ... once again its been a while. my computer is messed up at home and we havent got it fixed yet. today im at work with my mom and aunt. my last day of sessions was yesterday. now all i have left is a photo shoot tues, rehearsal thurs and my show is sat. i went to orientation yesterday with meredith and
got my schedule n stuff. its actually fairly easy until the 3rd qtr.

1 spanish 2- clark
2 drivers ed- macgregor
2 bus software- frye
4 amer history sstudy

then the 2nd is the same besides drivers ed changes to gym with coach bateh.

3rd Qtr
1 eng 3- flemming
2 chemistry- barfield
3 algebra 2- willms
4 tv pro- harris

so thats that...

so far this summer has been fun. but i really am lookin forward to going back to school and seeing everyone. i think this year is going to be very exciting. were almost "there" YAY!!! one more year (for most of us) well im going back to doing what i was doing so i luv all of u and ill see everyone soon!

Still kickin it....

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 16:02:04 GMT

Hmm...wow it has been a very long time since ive been on this thang. im at my dads and my comp is messed up at home :/! so alot has been goin on for me. i went to hilton head SC at the end of june for a week which was pretty fun. and thats really the only vacation ive taken. i went to daytona for a weekend last week then my cousin came in from outta town and stayed for a few days. we had a lotta fun and nonstop shoppin. it was ridiculous. then one night when we were coming home we ran over a cat in my driveway. it was horrible and the worst part is we didnt even fill it. then we got out of the car and our new neighbors were standing outside and they were like wtf u just ran over a cat and we look behind us and it was doin flips and i was flippin out it was kerazy. it was a stray cat though and not mine which makes it somewhat better. our new neighbors were pretty cool about it though bcuz i walked inside to put my bags down and by the time i walked back out they were already pickin it up for us. so i guess there not so bad like we expected. there in a band and one of the guys ive known since i was like 6. his name is derick. i think belinda might remember him becuz last year i remember her sayin she thought he was cute n stuff.

on a better note... this monday i start back at sessions so i can finish up and get my diploma. i only have to go mon-thurs then mon-wed from 4-6 which isn't bad at all then aug 7 is our fashion show. so im happy im finally going to be done with my classes.

My life seems to make sense now. its finally coming together :)

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 16:26:16 GMT

A lot has been goin on lately but def no time to update. My fashion shows Saturday were awesome. at first i was a bit nervous but by the 2nd show and my 3rd time it was fun. today i get to go look at my pics. i figure outta 40 a few have to look nice cos i am def not photogentic. so after i got home sat i wasn't even home for 10 mins and mallory pulled up. i was so excited to see her so i had to hurry up and get ready so i could leave with her. then that nite we left around 11 and went and played pool for a lil while then came back to her house and went to sleep. sunday my mom picked me up so i could go home and unpack from the previous week at my dads and get some things done. so i did all that then around 7:30 i went back over to mallorys and we got ready so julie could pick us up and we could go to the club. so we left with her went and got britney and headed out to the roxy. so on the way out there cj calls and was like hey are u headed out there already. im was like um..yes. then he said yea well i think me n chris are 2. i was like OMG NO WAY. wtf. i was beyond pist b/c he was bein the biggest asshole and he only wanted to go to watch me. so i thought he was liein so we got there and was doin our own thing and like an hour late me n brit were makin our way through the foam and i spot him so i run over hug him and kiss him. then we got outta the foam bcuz it was beyond our heads. well later that nite he then spotted me dancin with sum boy so he runs over and was like fuck u fuck u. so that started a fight. well after that i had nuthin to eat all day and i felt like i was gonna throw up so i was just like alrite lets go. so i left with cj went back to mallorys got my stuff then went home. and i dunno why but for sum reason it seems that nite brought us very much closer. (weird but tru).

so then monday was cjs day off so after he gotta outta school he came and picked me up around 11:30 then we went and did sum things i had to do then went back to his house. i think monday was one of the BEST days we have EVER had! ALOT was said that has been kept inside for a very long time that was beyond put out there. and he said sum things that after a year and a half i was still blown away by and still could't believe i was hearin from him. i loved it, it was wonderful :). so then later on that nite we went out to eat then went back to his house then he took me home.

- and i could not ask for more -

<333

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 01:13:09 GMT

Well it's been a week so I guess I'll update now.
Um... Friday nite, I went and finished my shopping then Cj and I went and saw The Day After Tomorrow. It was a pretty good movie. Then Mallory called and said she was in town so I went and stayed the night with her. Then Saturday came home so my dad could pick me up.

Today was my second day of modeling. We go from 10-3. Im really enjoying it and I've met a few really nice girls. Tomorrow is our photo shoot so we have to bring six outfits and thats all we gotta do. They do out make-up, hair and everthing. So that's a Huge stressor off meeh :)!!! Then Saturday is our fashoin show (we have 2) so I'm actually looking forward to it, usually I would be shy but I know what Im doing so Im looking forward to it.

Well Im going to take a shower I have to leave here at 8:30 in the morning.

<3

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 03:39:15 GMT

Happy Birthday Mallory!

the "Big" 1 7. lol hope u had a Great day.

XoXo

I Luv Ya!